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Gone Away Too Soon!!!

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Writing this post on Avi’s B’Day couldn’t have been harder. Without your presence Uncle this doesn’t seem like a B’Day. From morning we have been trying to act normal, but it’s so hard to pretend like everything is okay. But am sure Uncle you would be showering Avi with all your blessings today and am even more sure you’re very proud to have had a son like Avi today.

My Husband’s Father passed away on 19th February after a long battle with Cancer.

It’s been a week exactly. Last week, this time your physical presence left us. It still feels like a bad dream. It still feels like you will walk in through the main door and flash your trademark smile. You were gone too soon, Uncle.

The past two months in the hospital see you go through phases of pain, suffering, willpower to overcome anything that may beat you down still linger fresh in my mind. I walked into the hospital few days back to collect some documents and I could strongly feel your presence. I still wished I was on my daily visit to ICU bed no 5 to check on your vitals. I still wished I could see your heart rate beating on the monitor. I still wish you were around.

I still remember my last conversation with you, when you said “winners don’t cry,losers do”. You said, don’t cry when I go, I may not reach heaven then! Death never scared you, you were willing to fight it off. You were ready to fight off the cancer 2nd time round too. But why did you give up, angers me everyday. Why did you stop fighting. So many questions I want to ask you. You were gone too soon.

7 days are gone, but you have left us with memories of a lifetime. Every night for the last few days we sit around your photo and talk about all the good times. We feel you can still hear us, though you’re not present with us physically your presence can be felt at every corner of the house. All of us are trying hard to fight back tears, you wouldn’t have liked it.

We left no stone unturned to save you, but you were taken away too soon. I wish you had fought harder, but maybe you’re in a better place now, pain free looking down upon on all of us.

You always treated me like a daughter, never made me feel like a daughter-in-law. More like a friend. There was never a day which passed by that you made me feel otherwise. You welcomed me into the family with open arms, made me feel at home from the day I married your Son. You supported me whenever I needed a helping hand, you were there whenever I needed your presence even without asking. That’s what set you aside from everyone else. You were always there for everyone.

Day by day as people come to offer their condolences, all we hear is high regard and respect for you. Our hearts beam with pride. You’ve left a mark in everyone’s life that it’s impossible to overcome this irreplaceable loss.

The irony of life, but I’ve had the most amount of conversations with you in the hospital. When you were first diagnosed with Cancer, you were chilled out. You treated it like a normal cold and fought it out if your system. 2nd time around you were chilled out too, and wanted to fight back this time as well. But before you were even given a chance to fight, you were gone.

There isn’t a second in everyone’s mind for the last few days that we wish all this never happened. You were one of the happiest and positive human beings I’ve ever come across in my life. Where are you today??

You started off with nothing and reached heights in your lifespan. Your life story inspires me everyday to achieve whatever I desire in Life. Perform or Perish were words you stuck by always.

You inspire me everyday to be a better person, to work hard, to be sincere, to be a good human being, to do good and expect nothing in return. I wish and hope to live up to the expectations you had from me.

It makes me really proud to have been you’re Daughterinlaw and I cherish all the good times. We miss you Uncle terribly, more than words can say. We are trying to find strength in your memories to move on.

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29 going on 19

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You are the chalk and I am the cheese. I don’t think we both can annoy anyone as much as we irritate each other but are still inseparable. We both would make the perfect endorsement for two dissimilar people who still make a great pack.At times I feel I am living with a kid, but I love it. You make every day of my life challenging, but I still love it. I go to the movies alone at times so that I can enjoy my bucket of popcorn in peace without having to hear how many calories I am consuming. Every time you forget the parking slot in the mall, I think “seriously”. Every time my hands go looking out for a bag of chips and you give me the stern look “THAT”. You’re a gym junkie and it makes me wonder what did I get myself into. I hate it how you’re right most of the times, but I still try to stand my ground. Every morning when you sit with your bottle of water and stare at the ceiling, I wonder what the hell is there on the top. You bring out the best and worst in me. You make me think being dumb is cool. You let me be “ME”. You love Batman, I love Alice in wonderland. I wonder what a mundane, boring life I would be leading if you were not around to bug me. You’re a 29 yr old going on 19, pun intended. You make life seem like a breath of fresh air. I know you love me more, but I will never admit it.You make life colorful.

Happy B’Day Maverick, let’s go drink it up and make it a blast. I wouldn’t have wished for life to be in any other way. You make it bombastic. May all the candles you blow today bring you the best all year around. I Love You. Soulmates for life. Go get your six pack now.

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2 Years and still counting. Happy 2nd!!!

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2 years back around 7AM in the morning I was pacing and fretting in my suite cuz my stylist and makeup-man didn’t arrive yet (they were sleeping btw). I had to reach the wedding venue in about 45 minutes flat and I was still not ready.  The last option if they didn’t turn up was to reach the venue in my superman pyjamas (how kewl would that be know). Eventually they did turn up and transformed me into a pretty bridezilla. Yes I was getting married and it was my D-day.

Time has flown at the speed of light and today we complete two successful years of marriage. I am the kind of person who practically lives in fantasyland everyday of my life and like to turn my dreams into reality. Well I just don’t dream I make sure I see the light of my dreams as well. So in all probability when it came to finding the perfect Mr. Right for myself I always dreamt of a Knight in shining armor who would come riding on a nice black shiny horse and sweep me off my feet.

The day I met my husband for the first time, indeed he did sweep me off my feet just that he didn’t come on a horse (In my head I was already singing and dancing with him to “aint no other man” and head over heels”). It just seems like yesterday where we had to be the perfectly clad couple and pout for all the photographers flashing their cameras our way. I could relive this day every single day and get married over and over again (I hope nobody is listening else they will get jitters).

Initially when anybody spoke about marriage I would shy away from the question or would ask them to get married again if they were so interested. After I met my husband, it was like all the planets and stars in my life had changed and I just waited with eager breath to get hitched. We finally did after a long wait and here we are today in two complete pieces.

It has been a roller coaster ride and we have stood together through thick and thin. At times we are like Tom and Jerry waiting to pull off each other’s hair and most of the times we are like two peas in a pod (pardon me for being a lil poetic and lovey dopey today). When I’ve fallen down he’s held me and made me stand on my feet again. I learn so much from him everyday and living with him is a wonderful experience in itself. He’s full of positive energy and sees light at the end of every tunnel.  I get my strength from him when I feel like crap and I know life is beautiful because he’s a part of it.  His twisted sense of humor cracks me up every single time.

 

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I always tell my friends who fall back on me for marriage advice, that the best relationship is when you’re partner is your best friend.  My husband is my best friend and that makes our relationship even more special. We can talk and share anything under the sun, act dumb and still not feel stupid. Each day is a new challenge for us and we look at it as though it’s going to be our last. That’s how life needs to be lead to the fullest, enjoy every minute. It’s been two years now and when I look back I can only see fun-filled memories. I look forward to the years to come by full of love, happiness and togetherness. Happy 2nd Wedding Anniversary A and love you to eternity. Together and forever always 🙂

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PS: The photographs were shot at our wedding by one of my best friend Gautam who is an amazing photographer. You can check out his page on Facebook(Gautam Singh Samant).

Life as it is

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Over the weekend the husband and I watched a film called “Heroine”
Reading by reviews since the film had released I was really thinking if I should go and watch the film. Then finally I thought why not lets go and watch. I was really surprised by the talk surrounding the film cuz I really liked the film. It shows the high and lows of a film actress and how she deals with life emotionally. What was shown in the film is what actually happens in reality.

Maybe the film did bring back memories of the earlier films made by the same director and similarities could be drawn but what he tried to depict was absolutely the truth and what a person goes through in reality. The actress is in a mess when she does not do well career wise, she’s insecure in her relationships, she’s not sure of herself which translates into a very unusual behavior in her. It not only relates to film stars but everybody in general. We all go through different emotions in different phases of our lives and each one of us has different ways of dealing with it. Yes money,fame,success can get to your head and you live a fairytale life but all of a sudden when one day all that vanishes reality hits you. And why do things affect you so badly? Have you ever thought about it?

Well the answer is simple when you’re used to living a particular lifestyle letting go of it becomes difficult. We are all resistant to change and find it difficult to step down one level lower. We find it difficult to cope with things we go berserk, we go through an emotional turmoil. Why only with a particular lifestyle even with relationships as long as we are in it we are happy, if it does not work out we feel our world is falling apart. Yes it hurts when things don’t work out but is it the end of the tunnel? I believe there is light at the end of every tunnel, it’s difficult to deal with failure and rejection, it hurts but if you are willing to give yourself another chance then nothing like it. yes in relationships we tend to get too attached and we are used to doing things together with the person that we feel if the person is not around our lives mean nothing. Attachment is good but not to an extent where you become a wreck.

Life is full of ups and downs we need to be grounded at all times and have an experience of everything in life. We need to learn to be stable and stand up when things go wrong. If things go wrong it’s not the end, there is more to it take a leaf out of the experience so that you don’t commit the same mistake in the future. Every experience be it in ur life, career or relationship has a lesson in it. if it does not work out well don’t lose faith and give up instead try to learn what you can from the experience. Don’t let it affect you to such an extent that you can’t face yourself.

Every experience in life is worth living not giving up 🙂