I know this sounds crazy, but just like that on a whim, I signed up for my 1st 10k last week. This completely proves that I was born insane. Am I ready?? Hell, NO, nowhere close. Then why did I even sign up, I seriously won’t be able to answer that as well. With just 9 days to go, all I can think of is what got into me (I just want to kick myself). Can I back out now, no way I am not a loser.
In my head, I am finding all reasons not to go, what if I feel sick and the list is endless (trust me, it’s driving me up the wall). Maybe I just need to relax and take it easy. But, I can’t, I am a bunch of nerves. I can’t even think straight, I’ve never been this scared for even my toughest examination at MED school. My kith and kin always tell me, I never take tension rather I give other’s tension. Now I know what it is to be tense!
I never knew a RUN could scare the crap out of me. I never worry about anything in life, but this 10k run is stressing me out. I’m scared and intimidated. I just want to take it as it comes and go with the flow, like I deal with every situation but that doesn’t seem to be working here.
10k, run, 10k,run, 10k,run are the words flashing in my head constantly. I just want to do a headstand to get it out of my mind.
I don’t know how I am going to fare, if I’ll even be able to complete the distance, so many questions I am unsure of at this point in time. But, I know one thing for sure, I will run with my heart. I am doing this for myself. Just a beginner out there, but everyone has to start somewhere one day, this is my start and there is no backing out(I guess so).
However I fare in my 1st 10K, I know I’ll be proud of myself. I am doing this because Running makes me content, because it’s become my passion and because it’s become my 2nd love. I am going to RUN because it’s become my “HAPPY” place now. I know it’s going to be more than “WORTH” it. Keep you posted after my run next week. Wish me luck ☺