Yesterday while I was running I hurt myself pretty bad. I was already experiencing a lot of soreness and muscle pain but this was rock bottom for me. I continued running and then went to vote. Though it was a holiday everywhere in the city I was working yesterday.
All through the day I was pretty irritated. I had a weird feeling like something within me was waiting to explode. There was no particular reason but I was pretty much feeling in the dumps yesterday. Somewhere towards the end of the day I happened to mention to someone close that I signed up for a half marathon and I’ve started training. I was looking for a “Wow, you can do it” sorta of a reaction but I got a”Smirk, really let’s see how far you keep up with it”. That hit me, like solidly hit me. I didn’t react, I kept calm but I knew it pinched me within.
I came back home and was quiet. I went and slept for a while cuz I was really tired but I couldn’t close my eyes. The feeling you have when you lift maybe a 50kg and above dumbell I felt that way, heavy! My eyes were welling up with tears but I didn’t know why!
I got up and decided I wanted to run. My legs were hurting but I wanted to do it. So I ran for half and hour and while running I brokedown. Even now I don’t know why I cried but let me tell you I felt really good after the run.
Maybe what hit me was ” I cannot do it and will give up eventually”, I really have no idea!
Like I had mentioned in my earlier post I don’t know what I want to acheive by running but I guess I found my answer yesterday. I want to prove everyone wrong, I want to prove everyone who thinks I take my health and fitness lightly, I want to prove that I will get fit, I want to prove that I am committed and lastly I want to prove that I will not give up!
Love and Laughter always